Faded bloom.....

 

Hello everyone , welcome back !

I am at the verge of my life where I stopped being courageous, stopped dreaming and became conscious overly about every trivial thing. Apparently I stopped appreciating small victories and and became more pessimistic....the only thing I noticed was my flaws ; they would scream at me 

"YOU WILL NEVER MAKE IT" 

At some point I was scared and from what I can tell, I believed it. unknowingly "I gave up" 

As the days passed, I found myself merely surviving, never truly living. Everything felt wasted the degree I was pursuing, the hard work I did in past it seemed meaningless. The feeling of inferiority grew into a complex. 

That's how I went from being a radiant, lively spirit to a withered, faded soul................

As a child, I never truly explored anything; I limited myself to studies and, in doing so, created a barrier around myself where no one was allowed. I controlled my happiness by restricting myself. Aside from my studies, I never really allowed myself the time to enjoy or explore hobbies so as results I never really understood what hobbies meant. So as I grew up and entered into my 20's without any special interest and apparently that barrier shattered it was uncomfortable, strange as I never really experienced them, that's where the real problem began , everything was complicated as if i was not capable of dealing with it, the only thing which I was most proud of(studies) suddenly meant nothing as if everything collapsed.

I became vulnerable, my self-esteem shattered, and for a moment, I wanted to give up. But deep inside, something refused to let me quit. I knew then that 

"THE SHOW MUST GO ON, AND I HAD TO KEEP LIVING MY LIFE" even though it seemed I was about to quit

These days feel like the weirdest of my life. I’m uncertain about everything, as if I were standing in the center of thick clouds .It was lonely .It may seem as if am exaggerating but it is what it is...

I gues that's it for faded bloom stay tuned for upcoming parts

see you👀❤ 

 

BROKEN COURAGE ...

Hello, everyone!

 I’m just a girl who has left her teenage years behind and stepped into adulthood. Basically, I’m in my early 20's,  navigating life while being scared of the future, haunted by the past, and surviving in the present. That’s a bit about me—now, let’s move on to my thoughts.

Lately, I’ve been realizing a lot of things about life. My perspective has changed, my interests have shifted, and my habits have evolved. This 20-year journey has been a dynamic one—discovering new things, meeting new people, and facing new challenges.

For a long time, I believed life was unfair to me. I used to blame others for my circumstances and run away from everything. Each day, I came up with new excuses for not taking action. But in reality, I was just being lazy and avoiding accountability. Over time, this behaviour turned into a habit because it was easy.

     As the days went by, I started feeling like something was off. Without even realizing it, these habits became my toxic traits, leading to consequences like procrastination, anxiety, and, eventually, a loss of confidence.

At one point, I completely lost hope and faith in myself. I doubted whether I could ever become someone or achieve anything. That’s how I ended up being a coward with broken courage.

But don’t worry, my story takes a positive turn

When I was younger, I wasn’t clear about what I wanted to be in the future. However, I was confident enough to believe that I would become something. I had the courage to dream. But life is unpredictable, and we never know what’s waiting for us.

A wise man once said, “We have to go through something to truly understand whether it’s good or bad.”

For a while, I was stuck in that phase. I tried many things, but nothing seemed to work. Everything slipped through my fingers. Eventually, I stopped working hard and started making impulsive decisions.

Then, one day, something hit me hard—completely unexpectedly—and I finally realized my mistakes. But what exactly happened? I’ll reveal more in my upcoming blog

Stay tuned! See you soon!❤👀